I hold you in my hand
your silent ashes dust my palm
fist clenched, I couldn’t release you,
colorful petals to guide you
beneath me, Lake Cushman
above me, a cloudless blue shy
around me, an icy wind without you
everyone who loved you…
A memory of your still body
I stared at you for countless hours
but now, your body does not exist
my angry hand loosens around you
I wanted one last goodbye, your whiskers scratching my face
but I missed it…
remembering the last words we shared
Today, I face life outside you
wondering what our words would’ve been in our last moments
making myself promises because of you
striving for goals to prove myself…”write,” you said.
I can’t guarantee mistakes won’t be made
but I will live on with your name honorably
Not ready, I let you fall between my fingers…
I put you to rest surrounded by family
and the wind carries you to the surface of the water