Nights by Avicii
I am an open minded person who believes the best in people but there are defiantly times where my mind goes to a bad place and I questions people’s intentions. I wonder if they are in fact telling me the truth, if they are blowing smoke up my ass or simply they had the best intentions in their mind but things seem to fall through whether they like it or not.
I want people to say what they want but also follow through on what they say they will do. Life is too short to be filled with empty promises. So much of life needs to be lived as though it was your last moments and not worry about all the bull shit and just take people for their word.
After all life does happen therefore, we cannot possibly understand the ins and outs of every schedule but it is also my opinion that if I want to see or plan something with someone, dammit I want it to happen!! And if something happens than at least tell me why?
Okay, Okay I am throwing a tiny fit but that’s allowed, in my book. I frequently feel a bit jealous of all the fun my sister seems to be having with others and I want it to be with me. I have the best time with her and I want all the fun times to be with me. Crazy, right!?! But who can blame me for this. No one really, I am just being silly. But the heart wants what the heart wants, right?!?!
Does this make any sense? Probably not but it is how I feel at this moment, sitting in this chaotic place and with chatter and smiles seem somehow joyous and irritating at the same time.