I see Fire By E.S.
On the eve of the new year, I woke slowly and made coffee – sat outside. Knees pulled tightly to my chest, snow under my feet. The sky was so blue, the air so crisp, I could see my breath. The spruce surrounds me, the scent tickles my nose.
Last year at this time, this is where I sat. I wrote 2016 in the snow the same number will be written again but the last digit will change to a seven.
The past year has been full of dreaming, rediscovery, writing, tears, smiles, stress, Cross Fit, energy, passion, love, children who continue to grown every second…and so much more. I could go on and on but I don’t have enough pages. I pride myself on being raw, relishing in the moments, and there are parts of the last year I am keeping just for myself, for my soul.
In May, things changed. I committed to myself that things would be different, change my life, and live in the moment. Something deep down woke my soul and I realized that I am in control of my life (and no one else is) I have to speak up for my needs and I am not going to be someone else’s idea of who I should be. I am not wrapped up in this package. Neat and tidy, every hair in place nor do I want that. (Some may call me selfish, but I am not meaning to be.)
I am not put together all the time, although I love to dress up! Love the fireplace. I love my yoga pants, Nike’s and sports bra because I know I am headed for a kick-ass workout, I love cutting trail and getting off the beaten’ path, running through the mud puddles, I love the rain, I love taking risks, I want to leave a mark when I go, leave something for my children, I am inspired by just getting away for a few nights, get unplugged from the world, blue jeans and boots are my friend and so are patent leather red heels, I crave spontaneity.
New friends have entered my life and I am so grateful for them, they have helped me along this journey. I have so much to be grateful for and to those people; I hope you know who you are – you are a part of my tribe.
Thank you to everyone who has touched my life in the last year and I hope I have given you some joy in the past year. Here’s to next year…